God?

I know you are there and i know you are watching over me...but God,its just one of those days...i know nothing major has happened...i just hate feeling like i dont have control over anything going on around me...im getting tired and i need you to hold me up, please?...i cant do it alone...im sorry im not as strong as i should be...im sorry if it seems like i dont have faith in you...i promise i do...please daddy just carry me through this day

if you are reading this please say a little prayer for me

Wordless Wednesday (father son bonding)

Screaming screaming screaming

So the boys have not stopped screaming at us since last night. They are currently laying upstairs in their crib that they never lay in anymore, screaming their little heads off. Kyle fed them at 4, they woke up at 5 screaming bloody murder. I fed them at 7, still they felt the need to scream. I refuse to feed them until 10, I am staying on a schedule. I put them upstairs so it doesn't seem like they are screaming in my ear. Now if they fall asleep... I am not sure if I should wake them up to feed them at 10, or let them sleep. Wow, that is a hard decision.


If you notice Aiden is showing us his big boy skills by holding not only his head up, but his chest as well. Nathaniel is just being a stinker playing the I want my pacifier, but I am going to try to throw it at you once you look away!

Aiden's "manly" scar

Aiden is such a trooper! These are from the 17th, but he has already lost 2 of the strips and he gets his stitches taken out on Tuesday!!!

Tagged x 2

So my beautiful friends Tonni and Erin tagged me to do this random thingy.....

Rules:

1. List 7 random things about yourself that people may not know.
2. Link the person who sent it to you and leave a comment on their blog so their readers can visit yours.
3. Post the rules on your blog.
4. Tag 7 random people at the end of your post, linking their blog. Let each person know they've been tagged by leaving them a comment on their blog.

1. I lurk some peoples blogs and myspaces just because I secretly wish I had their life and I need to make sure I am up on their current events to compare my life to theirs.
2. I was bulimic 2 out of my 4 years in high school. Not because I needed to loose weight or thought I needed to loose weight, but because it was either smoke cigarettes to fit in or throw up my lunch with the girls.
3. Leather smells gross and I often get sick in my mouth when I smell it, yet I want a car that has leather seats??
4. I think that gold paper clips smell funny.
5. When I was 13 my mother had a rose bush that I felt she loved more than me, so I tried to kill it... but low and behold that damn thing made it through weed-b-gone, bleach, boiling water, salt and vinegar, salt and soap, pee (yes pee), Lysol, and laundry detergent (the powdered kind, big mistake the next day it rained and then she found out "something: was wrong).
6. When I go out to eat with a friend and there are no kids with us, I have a glass of wine or daiquiri and I think of easier times.
7. I refuse to buy larger clothes just because I think I will loose the baby fat "some day".

Okay ladies... I am tagging Tracy, Melissa, Jill, Dawn, Amanda, Jennifer and Brandy

If you don't have a blog spot, I encourage you to make one, it helps generate some good thoughts and it is not as lame as myspace. If you don't want to make one then can you please post 7 random things in my comments section!

xoxo
Kat

He's My Son

Song Lyrics by: Mark Schultz

I'm down on my knees again tonight,
I'm hoppin' this prayer will turn out right.
See, there is a boy that needs Your help.
I've done all that I can do myself
His mother is tired,
I'm sure You can understand.
Each night as he sleeps
She goes in to hold his hand,
And she tries
Not to cry
As the tears fill her eyes.

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place some how.
See, he's not just anyone, he's my son.

Sometimes late at night I watch him sleep,
I dream of the boy he'd like to be.
I try to be strong and see him through,
But God, who he needs right now is You.
Let him grow old,
Live life without this fear.
What would I be
Living without him here?
He's so tired,
And he's scared
Let him know that You're there.

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place some how.
See, he's not just anyone, he's my son.

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place somehow.
See, he's not just anyone.

Can You hear me?
Can You see him?
Please don't leave him,
He's my son.


This song did a lot for me when the boys were tiny. When they were sick. Beautiful lyrics.

Wordless Wednesday - Father son moment