Breaking free from our addictions

So lately I have been watching Joyce Meyer, if I cannot get that one on one time with my Bible. I came across a youtube link where she is talking about emotional healing but she said something that is sticking with me this week…….Trust requires that we have unanswered questions.–ugh…I am a momma I want know why it happened, how it works, what the conclusion will be, show me the outcome before I start…..its just me I like to KNOW!!! I am a tad OCD as you all that are close to me know. But I am not OCD about washing my hands, cleaning my house, reading my Bible, or seeking God, but about analyzing EVERYTHING….to a point that it becomes a complete sickness….but I have never thought that it was an addiction just how I was built.
BUT OMG I am addicted to over thinking, reasoning, analyzing….all those things and more. I am one of those people that does not retain information well, and when you say something and I have no clue what it is I will run to Google and find out everything I can about it. Just like with God I want to know everything I can. I am in the process of reading 3 different books, I love the Bible (I headed out yesterday to buy yet another one, The Message so I can understand it better), but with God he leaves us with a very few questions….so we will have to trust and have faith in Him for the rest of the story. For me it has been really hard to put all my trust in the things I don’t know or can’t see. I am just that kind of person. I have not had very trusting relationships in the past. I was talking with a good friend earlier and I told her I think that this is how God made me, He built me this way for a particular reason and no I don’t know why and never will but that's how I was built.
But Joyce answered my problem in that youtube video, she said – We don’t live by explanations we live by the promises of God. In the Bible there are millions of promises that God has made to each and every one of us. So now that I have an answer, a way to be free from my addiction I am going try - try my hardest to just read those promises and trust God.
God knows the whole story and as hard as it is for me to just sit back and read it before jumping to the end I am going go through each chapter one by one and quit trying to jump to the conclusion. Gods work is perfect and more than I can ever do and when or if He wants me to know he will reveal what He wants to my heart. With that I just want to pray for my addictions and yours too whatever they may be.
Gracious Father, Thank You for being the Awesome God full of promises that our minds cannot even imagine. Thank you Father that you give us all weak spots in our lives Lord because those weaknesses give us more reason to draw near to you because you Lord are Perfect and can heal us of our weakness, our addictions, and our sickness. Lord thank you that in Your healing You make us new and give us all a need and a stronger for You in our lives God. And Father I pray for those who are petrified to come onto you with fear that they are not worthy Lord I pray that they would see that You want us all Lord as we are because You will heal us and renew our broken spirits and put us back together just as You want us Father….. I pray that those who are scared to come to You would lay down there fear right now and ask you to break down that door into their hearts. I thank you Father each reader of this Blog that you would use it as a way to speak to the broken hearted and bring them into your love. AMEN